I have come to the conlusion that I am a poor sport when playing games. I doesnt matter what game it is, but I hate loseing. I guess I didnt just come to that conclusion, but I would like to do something about it. I really dont know what to do about it though. Like I can try to be a better sport, but Im not sure what that means. I guess I can start with not yelling so much when I play games, and especially not yelling to my teammates on the game. All that does is make then annoyed and not be able to hear their own game. So yea now I just need to lay off the voice com, and try not to break anything when I lose. Sounds easy enough, but I know its going to be hard. Well nothing worth doing is easy, so there you go.

Man, well somethings may be going wrong in my life, but I must say that I think I am really getting good at this fashion thing, like at predicting where designers will go. I watched the Fall 06 collections of most of the men's designers and in several of them I saw things that I had just thought of doing. Old style coats (like 18th century duke stuff), tall boots with the pants tucked, and my favorite was studded belts. Leave it to Christopher Bailey to use something that I have loved wearing in a high fashion show. Well I guess thats enough about that, man I wish I could make some clothes right now... eh whatever.

Well, Im not usually one to comment on girlfriends online, but well I figured that this might be a good time. I think that I may have consoled myself to not having a girlfriend or getting married, I mean... it doesnt really matter that much, and if I dont have a relationship then I would be saving money and time that would otherwise be spent on that girl. I think it just comes down to the fact that I dont seem to have much luck with girls. The ones I like have no interest in me, and the ones I dont want to have a relationship with want one with me. So thats the plan right now, now hopefullly Ill stick to it, so... yea thats the end of that chapter in my life.

You know what? I cannot figure out what people think is so bad about the movie Alexander. I just watched it again today and I really do like it. I know there are homosexual things in there, but whatever, the man felt betrayed by everyone, he just went to his only true friend in the world (who was a guy). Like his love for him did not have to be construed as being homosexual, everyone in this crappy modern world thinks that everything is sexual, so its no surprise when a man says he loves another man to think that he is instantly gay. I have to say that as Alexander said, "there are many kinds of love" and that is the truth. Crap look at all the words for love in the GREEK language! Freakin idiots. Well whatever everyone is entitled to his or her own opinion, and so Im giving mine, and I really like this movie and I feel for the plight that Alexander worked through his entire life. He did what he felt was right and for that he attained mythical status. I only hope that my life can be all I want it to be as Alexander worked so hard for his dream.

Well Im finally realizing that Im not ment to be an engineer, and Im ok with that, though it does seem like giving up on engineering is like quiting something important. I have to realize that engineers are no more important that anyone else, and though the major is hard it doesnt mean that engineers are better than like english majors or something like that. I guess with the guys I know in engineering to hear me say that I want to fashion design seems really weird, but I dont think Im supposed to be stuck to one field. Like I could be a good engineer, but I really dont want that in my life anymore, so I will make the best of my last couple of months as an engineer and find a equally important calling for life. Like I know of one person who thinks my desire for fashion design to be dumb, but all I can say is that I really like fashion, and I though I might not be the best engineer I can do many things that other engineers cannot do (such as play 4 instruments, and write poetry, and be able to dress myself in the morning) so Im not any worse off not using my degree. Im just glad Im finally figuring out what I really like to do.

I do not know why myspace has a "delete my account" button if it doesnt even freakin work, like Ive tried like 3 times to delete my account and it always says that I will get an e-mail telling me how to remove my account, but I have yet to get any of those dang e-mails. I guess myspace is like HIV, once you have it, its never going to go away.

Well dont you just love credit card fraud? well I know I do, because it just happend to me. Yea some person decided to buy 900 Canadian bucks worth of telecommunications stuff, who knows what, but I just happen to notice this little purcase last night when I was checking my statement online. So yea, this isnt something that new to me, I had to deal with this once before, but well I had to call the credit card company and tell them I didnt make the purchase. They said it would all be taken care of, now isnt that nice of them? yea well everything should be fine and I really do like credit card companies, I just really dont like it when people use my credit cards. Now I just have to settle this with the company who thinks I bought this stuff from. Dang it! well on the bright side, at least this week is pretty easy, if I could only get this GANT chart done. Well I guess thats my life right now... oh that and I love my new shoes, they are really nice. Ok Im done.

Man Im so glad that God loves me. Like I always knew it, but every now and then I get better glimpses of it. Like today when my 150b professor made our project due Friday instead of Wed, so yea that made things better and easier. And beside that I now have a clear idea of what Im going to make for that project, and Ive even done some calculations. Man seeing how much God loves me it makes me so sad for how many times Ive hurt Him, Im just so happy that Im forgiven and today Im starting again as a man of God.

Well this being my first post I figured it should be something to remember. I just wanted to say Im glad I dont have to kill myself, because the eng-122 test I thought I had on tuesday is postponed to the 22nd, so yea, that makes me pretty happy. Maybe Ill write a poem about it, though all of my poems of late have been really depressing. Eh whatever.